5/3/25 but at like 12am - 5/6/25

(yes it took multiple days...i was busy)

i'm back hoes....i did not forget to write an entry last month i just couldn't find the time to write it i guess. i am...employed now....i know. i'm shocked too. but it's been good, the job i mean... it's a little boring but my coworkers are mostly nice, i don't get an exhausting amount of hours, & the pay is pretty good especially since literally like 80% of my paycheck goes towards music related merch (mostly cd's). Sorry for having autism
what else...
OMG. How cpuld i forget... i got a kitten!!!!! she is the cutest most perfect little thing i love her so so much. and i think she loves me too ^_^

her name is Chaeri. i named her after an amazing magdalena bay song that you should listen to Right Now. she is such a little rascal it's so funny...she runs around so much she has way more energy than i thought she would. typical black and white cat behavior...
i also have a bajillion scratches on my body now cuz of her. but it's ok, i think it's her way of telling me she loves me. anyways i'm so happy i got her. i've wanted a cat for yearsss i'm lucky that my cousins cousins sister (lol) was giving out kittens for free too....but i would've payed billions for chaeri. hypothetically
onto the next thing
i went to prom... i mentioned i would last entry and i did go even though i cried the day of cuz i felt uglay...i'm sorry women. but i felt pretty later so idk maybe it was cuz i was wearing a bunch of makeup and i cut my hair a lot it was just too much change but Wow i am so glad i chopped half of my hair off like best decision of my life. i feel so free now.....
i won't put a pic of me (for privacy reasons also i'm scared) but i looked cute! trust me...you trust me right?
but i will put these pictures of all the hair i got chopped off on the ground (peep the south park shorts in the corner), these little desserts they had at prom (cheesecake and chocolate cake, they were both pretty good), and my dog being super shy

but prom was kindof mid...like just not much happened. and they played drake like literally wtf. but all the girls looked gorgeous. and i love seeing beautiful women. so that made it alright. it was also fun to hang out with my friend for a few hours of course and talk about random shit with her
idk how to do dividers in a normal way ok
on to more important events, i played yakuza 3 last month and omg why do people hate this one??? i thought it was so good....the doomed yaoi was like kinda crazy.
the only thing i didn't like was lmao them just verbatim explaining the plot for a whole chapter like yes it was hilarious and i don't always think that's a bad way to explain the plot (Chapter 9: The Plot) of a game or whatever But....i feel like it could've been done better no se...it was lowkey just boring the way they did it
but that (and maybe the fighting being harder for no reason idk is that just a skill issue or is it literally harder than 0 k1 and k2) was my only complaint... it was great. not my favorite yakuza game but it's up there. i mean i've only played like 4 of the games so far but whatever
i love mine... my beautiful toxic gay evil son. He isn't evil he just has a lot to learn
omg and don't even get me started on daigo i love that ugly ass freak....he's like my fave character in the series i lowkey get a kawaii overload when i see him even though he's literally ugly asfuck

JUMPSCARE WARNING him for reference. if you think he's cute or whatever good for you but i personally need him dead.
also back to yakuza 3 bruh i loved the sections where it was legit just kiryu caring for the kids at morning glory peak yakuza gameplay. i'm playing y4 rn and it's pretty good i like the new characters my fave is lowkey akiyama he's funny and just his face is funny to me i can't explain it

i can't remember what else happened last month
hmmm
oh bcnr's new album was great!! i love love love two horses and nancy and for the cold country... two horses is like my favorite song of theirs by far rn. you'll see more written about it once i finish the music page...so not very soon but it's #coming! at like some point
i listened to some good music last month
i also bought cd's like i mentioned (i think) earlier. i officially started my collection this month ^_^ here's a little look at those~

i love cd's so much i'm actually going to a record store this saturday maybe, if it's interesting enough i'll do a little entry about it afterwards on here.
this entry was a lot messier than the last one um...i guess i just don't give a fuck...just kidding i do. love you all
also remember how i said my coworkers are mostly nice? my new manager is an ASSHOLE talking shit about me behind my back and giving me less hours cuz she doesn't like closing with me motherfucker you are 35 beefing with a 17 year old like what are we doing here. god take all of njz's pain and give it to my new manager wtf
well i think i'm done writing. now, the moment you've all been waiting for... the JPEG'S.

byebye!

3/25/25

phewww this page is finally up! not by the time i'm typing this but by the time you, the reader, are seeing this. btw hello~ thanks for reading hehe
i've been working on this site since probably last summer when i was at the peak of my k-on hyperfixation (hence the entire site's theme) and also i remembered neocities existed. i do still love k-on a lot, it's still probably my favorite anime ever but i'll admit i don't watch anime much. but there's something about k-on that's special to me. i can't quite describe it. maybe everything about it? idk.

i was looking for the imgur post where i found every background i've used for this site (minus the homepage's, i found that one on pinterest) and it was linked in a reddit post and the above image was a reply someone left on said post. it feels really relevant. and made a little sentimental. but almost everything has that effect on me really.
moving on, life recently has been pretty ok! i've found out some crazy family related personal stuff (too personal to share) that has made me a little nervous, scared, etc. sometimes i wish i wasn't so empathetic because it's not even my situation yet i emotionally feel as if i'm experiencing it first hand. but i also feel lucky to be so empathetic in a world where it seems like no one even cares about each other anymore! Wow i sounded old there. it's ok.
but seriously i'm okay. i was a bit depressed this week because i got sick and food started to taste bad because of it (somehow i always get sick on school breaks) but i think i'm pretty much healed now. school starts again tomorrow though... which is never good. but i'm kinda excited to listen to my routine walking to class songs and see my friend again. prom is soon, i can't say i'm too excited though i'm just not really a party person at all. dat social anxiety + autism combo really hits when i'm at a party with a bunch of people i'm not very fond of, and i honestly am not very fond of a lot of people at school lol. it's not like i hate everyone but ugh...
but yesterday i went to the mall and bought a very gorgeous dress and also something that i'd say is much more important...

usagi! IYAAAAHAAA!
has anyone else noticed that (i'm pretty sure) usagi is the only character in chiikawa whose dialogue is written in katakana instead of hiragana? i think it's because they're so loud. i love that. that's so funny. they were also the only character i saw plushies of at miniso, not even chiikawa themself had any plushies left. this chiikawa shit gets serious.
when i got home i was exhausted as always (i have the energy of a like 80 year old, i actually think an 80 year old might have more energy than me), i just hung out with my mom and we at like 8pm went out in pj's to buy taco bell. i always love doing little things like that with family. i remember one time i stayed at my cousins and we randomly one night, again in pj's, went to walmart to buy i think just food or maybe milk. idk why that was so great. ...
i did the dishes then my nightly listening to music while scrolling pinterest before going to bed around 12am. i listened to western by bm for like an hour. everything about that song is just perfect. i also listened to basketball shoes by bc,nr last night and had this strange sense of melancholy for the rest of the night afterwards. damn. don't listen to basketball shoes late at night worst mistake of my LIFE!
i'm scared i won't have any time to work on this site when school starts again so i'll try to get it up by tonight. also i think i don't wanna do all the sections i have on my index or maybe i wanna do more? idk. this won't be fully finished for a long, long time. but right now i'm hungry i'm gonna find something to eat, goodbye stranger